The Moment

am 2:30 睡不著的感覺太明顯，我想也沒有必要硬躺，騙自己其實很累很想睡，我把親愛的macbook抱到床上。

"I don't love you anymore."
"Since when?"
"Now, just now.
這是電影"偷情（Closer）"裡，Alice ＆ Dan的對話，最近反覆出現在我腦海裡...

而Alice說出這句話的原因，是Dan對愛的懷疑、忌妒、掙扎與無理取鬧，是Alice對Dan的失望，Dan終究還是脆弱，抵擋不住想知道真相的慾望，用尖銳的問題逼走了愛他的Alice，原本也許還能好好經營的愛情，瞬間變得不再美好，人性的脆弱讓Dan毀了一切。

現實生活中的感情，雖然沒有電影裡那麼複雜，但這幾句對話帶給我的震撼特別深，是因為我可以了解突然不喜歡了的感覺，當故事變得不再美麗，就不想要再繼續，傷心失望過後，可以突然變得很理性。

Lately, we shared some pleasant time together. It was so touching and so exciting.
Though your coldness at times made me suffer. I still appreciate what you brought to me. Since I figured out the little secret that night, everything changed at sudden.
I got drunk for you even ***** because of you.It sounds like a sad but just at that moment, I don't like you anymore. Thank god you made it imperfect to set me free.
I won't cry because it is over but i will smile because it happened.